The problem with me is that sometimes I never think too seriously about how what I say may sound to the listener. Sometimes when I'll be better off being quiet, I'll proceed to shoot my own foot. Then there are times I feel I should have said something but yet I let it go only to regret later.
I used to hang out with this gang of pretty good friends. As with any group there may sometimes be conflicts (quite minimal....in fact non existence for them), also laughter and joy that we shared. (some of them still take the time to read my blog....hehe....which I'm very thankful for)
During that period when I was taking up my part-time degree programme, (which actually was the 3rd time I took up a part-time degree course - I gave up half way the first 2 instance). I decided that I must really make it this time and pass all my exams. There were many instances when this particular group of friends asked me out but I turned them down without properly explaining why.
One instance I even met them by chance and I really spoke from my heart when I said I'm really appreciative of the fact they keep trying to ask me out tho I can seldom make it. I also made the silly remarks that "other people would have given up trying long ago". I did not realise how that may have sounded as I really mean it when I said I'm very touched by them for not giving up on me......in the end they misconstrued that I was being sarcastic and snobbish. Who can blame them. Thinking back, I realise (at a tortoise's rate) how silly of me to make those remarks.
I wish to express my apologies to them. In fact to everyone whom I've offended in anyway with the things I may have said expressly or otherwise.
hmmm....I think I know what my 2007's resolution will be.
1 comment:
:) I have a grp of secondary school mates whom i got to know during my lowest point in school and they are forever texting me and dropping me emails to wana catch up. I will always turn them down. Not once have I attend their gatherings. I feel so bad abt it. Especially to this female friend who always make an effort to plan and get everyone together. I do not go, not becos I dislike them or am a stuck up, but becos I have moved on to another stage of my life where I really doubt they will understand. They will prob freak out if they knw about me / my life now. I too never bother to explain to them why I always never turn up and they will always keep trying to include me into their plans.
So dun feel bad, you arent alone. kekekekekeke!
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